DinEd and dAsheD

balloons.. oh no, balloons..

Tue, 18 Jul 2006 20:54:58 GMT

Yearg...

Do you ever feel out of place in your own skin? like it doesn't fit anymore? I wish i was some sort of snake so I could shead my skin. That may make life more interesting. I haven't had my meds in 4 days and it's fucking with my mind. I either need to get laid or get some more medication soon so I don't kill myself. Damn sexual side effects. I've been having the weirdest dreams, too. If any dream I have told you about before you thought was weird, it's about 10 times weireder without my meds. I need to buy milk. And juice. I should be moving in today. Holy crap, is that the time? fuck shit fuck

and if i'm six feet tall why do feel small, here beneath the posters on my wall?

Fri, 14 Jul 2006 22:08:13 GMT

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

✓ I miss somebody right now. (Even though they havn't left yet)	✓ I don't watch much TV these days. (With only two channels it gets old fast)	✓ I own lots of books. (mostly manga... okay maybe halfnhalf)
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses. (fear the four eyes)	✓ I love to play video games.	✓ I've tried marijuana.
✓ I've watched porn movies. (mentally scarring at a young age)	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. (@_@)	✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy. (Not that I actually tell the truth all the time)
✓ I curse sometimes. (A lot more lately)	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. (for better or for worse..?)	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

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× I have broken someone's bones.	× I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.	× I hate the rain. (the rain is so awesome, bah!)
✓ I'm paranoid at times. (at times? like ALL the time)	✓ I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. (i don't like my nose)	✓ I need/want money right now. (need/want new job as well)
× I love sushi. (blech)	✓ I talk really, really fast. (when i am nervous)	× I have fresh breath in the morning. (bullshit to anyone who says they do)
× I have long hair.	× I have lost money in Las Vegas.	✓ I have at least one sibling. (sister)
✓ I was born in a country outside of the U.S. (Canada, mother fuckers)	✓ I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past. (for halloween)	× I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
× I like the way that I look.	× I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.	× I am usually pessimistic.
✓ I have a lot of mood swings. (usually followed by fist swings, jk)	× I think prostitution should be legalized.	× I slept with a roommate.
✓ I have a hidden talent. (does touching your nose with your tongue count?)	× I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have. (need... sugar..)	× I have a lot of friends.
✓ I have pecked someone of the same sex. (pecked? as in kissed? three in one day O_o)	✓ I enjoy talking on the phone.	× I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
✓ I love to shop and/or window shop.	× I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal. (i tend to ignore it)	× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
✓ I have a mobile phone.	× I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.	× I've rejected someone before.
✓ I currently like/love someone.	× I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. (Photography = love)	× I want to have children in the future. (i hate kids, but maybe i'll change my mind when i'm older)
✓ I have changed a diaper before. (ewwww...)	× I've called the cops on a friend before.	× I'm not allergic to anything. (dust, peppers and penicillin)
✓ I have a lot to learn. (everyone does)	× I am shy around the opposite sex.	× I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
× I have at least 5 away messages saved.	✓ I have tried alcohol or drugs before.	× I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
× I own the "South Park" movie. (but i do know someone who does)	× I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.	× I enjoy some country music.
✓ I would die for my best friends.	✓ I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.	× I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
✓ I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. (BEST HOLIDAY EVER!!)	× I have dated a close friend's ex.	× I am happy at this moment. (too hot to feel)
× I'm obsessed with guys.	× Democrat.	× Republican.
✓ I don't even know what I am.	✓ I am punk rockish. (Warped tour is my summer love)	× I go for older guys/girls, not younger. (why have all the people i've date (except one) been younger? I need to get out more to meet older men)
× I study for tests most of the time. (too lazy)	× I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.	✓ I can work on a car. (i can work on it, but make it work, no)
× I love my job(s). (i hate dealing with the public)	× I am comfortable with who I am right now.	× I have more than just my ears pierced. (I don't have my ears pierced but my eyebrow is)
× I walk barefoot wherever I can.	× I have jumped off a bridge.	✓ I love sea turtles. (so cute)
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.	✓ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.	× I am proficient on a musical instrument.
✓ I hate office jobs.	× I went to college out of state.	× I am adopted.
✓ I am a pyro. (only slightly......)	× I have thrown up from crying too much.	✓ I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
× I fall for the worst people.	✓ I adore bright colours.	× I usually like covers better than originals.
✓ I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.	✓ I can pick up things with my toes.	× I can't whistle. (but i hate it)
✓ I have ridden/owned a horse. (I took ridding lessons once)	× I still have every journal I've ever written in.	✓ I talk in my sleep.
× I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.	✓ I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.	× I wear a toe ring.
✓ I have a tattoo.	× I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.	× I am a caffeine junkie.
× I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all. (i'm tree-huggy but not spiritual)	✓ If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder. (i'm the friend everyone thinks may snap and go on a killing spree)	✓ I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
× I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner. (blech)	✓ I'm an artist.	× I am ambidextrous. (i used to be)
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed. (i used to till my allergies kick in)	✓ If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.	✓ I have terrible teeth. (but i won't admit it)
✓ I hate my toes. (they are long and alien like)	✓ I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me. (tagged?)	× I have more friends on the internet than in real life. (havn't been on the internet much)
✓ I have lived in either three different states or countries.	× I am extremely flexible.	✓ I love hugs more than kisses.
✓ I want to own my own business. (yet have none of the responsibilities)	× I smoke.	× I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
✓ Nobody has ever said I'm normal.	✓ Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then. (gah)	× I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
✓ I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.	✓ I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.	× I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
✓ I have played strip poker with someone else before. (although noone ended up taking off more than a sock)	✓ I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.	× I believe in ghosts and the paranormal. (i'll believe it when i see it)
× I can't stand being alone.	✓ I have at least one obsession at any given time.	× I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again. (O_o people do this?)
✓ I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment. (ugh...)	× I'm a judgmental asshole.	× I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
× I have travelled on more than one continent.	× I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.	✓ I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
× I am a Libertarian.	× I can speak more than one language.	× I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be. (i can't sleep unless there is quiet)
✓ I would rather read than watch TV.	× I like reading fact more than fiction.	✓ I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do. (procrastination is key)
× I have no piercings.	× I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.	× I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.	× There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.	✓ I like most animals better than most people. (my shirts says "my cat is my best friend" believe it)
✓ I own a collection of retro games consoles. (FUCK YEAH GO SNES)	× The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.	× I have hit someone with a dead fish.
✓ I am compulsively honest. (although only rarely, ask Dy.. she knows how strange things just pop out of my mouth)	× I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.	× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
× I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex. (...what?)	✓ I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.	✓ I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
× I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on.	× I dislike milk. (mmmm)	× I obsessively wash my hands.
× I always carry something significant around with me.	× Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.	× I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.	× I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document.	✓ I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
× I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time. (.........dude)	✓ Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.	× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts.	✓ I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing. (artists?)	✓ I don't like to chew gum. (it hurts my jaw)
× I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.	× I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car. (i have to remeber for my mom)	✓ I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years. (but i havn't told anyone)
× I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.	× I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.	✓ I love to sing. (only in privite)
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up. (my GRANDMOTHER's yesh)	× I have a custom-built computer.	× I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.	× I've gone skinny-dipping.	× I've performed in three plays.
× I enjoy burritos.	× I'm Irish and loving it.	× I have a thing for redheads.
× I am a twin!	× Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.	× Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else. (so bad at that.. never finish anything)
✓ I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.	✓ I sleep more than 12 hours a day.	✓ I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
✓ I need more time to myself. (i seem to have aquired a side-kick lately)	× I wish I was more open-minded. (i am open-minded)	× I hope that I go really prematurely grey.
✓ I download songs from the internet. (i love pirates)	× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend.	✓ I say random things to freak people out. (usually involving cheese)
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note. (what is this death note?)	× I love playing Truth or Dare. (bad experiences)	× I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.
× Music helps me remember that I am not alone.	× Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.	✓ I think this survey is particularly long. (god damn it)
× I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones. (i don't have any that i don't know in real life)	× I can only hate someone that I love. (what?)	× I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks. (i hate coffee)

Shit

Sat, 08 Jul 2006 19:53:31 GMT

ARG! I feel so angry but I don't really have a reason. What the hell is up with me? I want to go out and do stuff with people but I'm afraid I'll snap at them like I did yesterday (btw I'm really sorry about that, you were just trying to help). Maybe it's just that I'm afraid of change. All this moving stuff makes me on edge. I hate having to justify all my pack-rat objects I have no use for and then lug them to a new location. Especialy to Cole, that ass. Yeah he'll help, but he's going to make fucking comments about all my shit the whole time. I know I have a problem, I've slowly been wittling it down but its really hard, okay? I wish he'd leave me alone. Also when I even suggest to my mother that I want to get rid of some of the toys I have collected over the years, she says, "You want to get rid of THOSE? Do you remember what I paid for them??" It makes me feel so guilty, but I'm 20 fucking years old! Yes, I want to get rid of my TOYS! Well, most of them. I can't help that you spoiled me rotten and bought me everything I asked for. I hate to think what she'll say when I tell her I don't really want my beanie babies any more. *shudder* The next thing on my sorting list is my stuffed animals, I have WAY to many. Gotta let go. ERG, just thinking about it makes me nervous. Hiding from my problems isn't working.

I have this huge bruise on my leg that everyone says looks like a galaxy. I think it looks more like a nebula. I took a picture of it, but I havn't been able to upload it so oh well. You will have to see me in person if you want to admire it. I wish I knew how to play the bass. I have no one to blame but myself for my lack of talent.

Man, I have got to stop being so depressed. Usually Joce can cheer me up no problem but she's working today. I am at a loss as to what to do. At least I don't have to babysit today. My head still hurts from yesterday. I don't like kids... at all. Too much noise. Perhaps later I will mature and feel resposible enough to have children but right now, fuck no. My sister wanted me to babysit her youngest for the summer while she's at work. I couldn't help but think that either the kid or me would not last that long. Sure, she's cute and loveable but that's when she's not crying or pooping. 10 months old. Talk to me after they can use the toilet by themselves. Not to sound mean or anything, but I'm a terrible babysitter. I really tried yesterday, really. In the end I was ready to throttle the older one because she kept making high pitched whinning (horses are her favourite animal) noises, I really don't think I changed the baby's diaper enough (for some reason this just didn't occur to me for the longest time), the baby fell over and hurt herself three times, and I stressed out so much I forgot to eat lunch. At least I remembered to let the dog out occasionally. I think the best part of the day was when the baby took her nap. Oh, the peace. I am not ready for the responsibility of child rearing. I don't understand how teen moms can do it. That's probably the reason I don't want to have sex until I am married. I don't think I would be able to raise a child on my own. I want someone commited to helping me before I'd even THINK about having a baby. Even then I'd much rather adopt. So many children without homes, why bring another one into the world. Oh well. I think I've ranted enough. I think this might be the longest post I've ever done. To copy spiffy, if only once, I'm going to sign off.

, no-thumbs jack

Happy fucking birthday, you're a big slut-whore

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 03:16:12 GMT

Die young and save yourself

Mon, 26 Jun 2006 22:31:45 GMT

So.. funerals are depressing.. yep.. big surprise there. I did get to learn my friend is going to Japan AGAIN ugh.. I'm jealous.. yet too lazy to save up and go with her.
I seem to be stuck in a rut without 4-wheel drive to help me out. I feel like I'm waiting for something to happen, but I don't know what to do to get things started.
My birthday is tomorrow.. the big 2-Oh. I feel stranger now than when I turned 19. I'm actually not going to be a teenager anymore. Geh.
..Party? I have no place to throw it or money to throw into it. Another birthday without any sort of real celebration.. I've kind of gotten used to it.
Arg.. I hope no one actually reads my LJ. All I seem to do on here is bitch and moan.
C'mon! Happy thoughts! Happy thoughts!
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..Aw, fuck it..

Note to you!

Sun, 25 Jun 2006 23:10:11 GMT

Halo thar Jess.... :D
Okies. Your new layout is about 90% finnished! :D
The other 10% is something your better off doing. like adding links and changing titles and junk. Please DO NOT remove that credit in your USER INFO until you get a new layout. If you wanna edit the layout, a good tip would be to have a safty save of the CSS in note pad just in case you screw up and lose all you've done.
The layout doesn't look nice with a default icon, so I got rid of that. We're also given 3 more icons, so I've added 3 of my own. Your free to change them and what not. I can make some with images of your choice.
Also, learn to credit icons via -> rock_dy
( < lj/ user/="username"/> ) Just remove the /'s.

Done. Enjoy!

He is the lamb, she is the slaughter

Sun, 25 Jun 2006 17:05:11 GMT

Our water has been turned off so they can clean the water main... I wanna have a shower! GAH! Caterday was a lil delayed but enjoyable none the less. The Ex sucked monkey ass this year. If I even get the slightest bit excited next year, someone please remind me of this year. I got home and played Scrabble with my Grandmum, she's so awesome. I was very pleased with myself at being able to spell 'zebras' although it wasn't all that great point wise. I am sitting here wishing someone would come on msn so we can do something, but not willing to phone anyone. I still need to shower. Damn that blue flag sitting on the lawn. How it mocks me! My lj layout really sucks but I'm to lazy to fix it.. if someone could point me in the right direction it would be appreciated. So.. ugly.. it is now.. bah
edit: fear the pinkness

Do you wanna know how it feels on the inside?

Thu, 08 Jun 2006 01:55:22 GMT

This is for Dy.. took me long enough too...

...don't worry kids, on the inside I'm screaming too.

Which one's for you?

Thu, 04 May 2006 22:33:45 GMT

Dude, "It prob'ly won't matter to much later, but.. ooooh, it feels good to spill the beans" TOTALLY CAME BACK TO BITE ME IN THE ASS! Yeah.. it happened awhile ago but.. I havn't felt like posting in awhile

...And throw me in with it..

Thu, 07 Jul 2005 18:52:13 GMT

You scored as Eaten. Your death will be death by wild animals. You will probably get eaten by a bear or shark something because you don't know the natural safety precautions and are ignorant.

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Accident

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Suicide

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Posion

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Cut Throat

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Natural Causes

53%

Disappear

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Disease

47%

Stabbed

33%

Bomb

33%

Suffocated

33%

Drowning

33%

Gunshot

20%

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"Look out! He's got a towel!!"

Thu, 05 May 2005 02:58:45 GMT

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betty i'm a dreamer i'm not a vicious schemer oh betty won't you- oh, fuck it

Wed, 02 Mar 2005 01:46:26 GMT

BOO-YA! I finished a crossword!! An actual one! From a newspaper!! Yeah! Go me! I is teh smart!
In math today I found out my mark is 103% O_o WTF? That's only ever happened to me once before and that was in some easy computer elective class-doody-thingie.. But this is math! PRE-CAL MATH! Geh.. o_O Now I just have to keep it up ^-^ Maybe I can have 100% for this term's mark XD

The ceiling stopped leaking at least.. That was a weird day. I got to look in the attic tho! It was awesome.. it was all cold and dark.. and reminded me of the attic at the end of The Grudge (Japanese ver.)
Then I went to visit Jocelyn and played spider solitare for a few hours while she watched the oscars (booooring blah) but i got to barrow awesome CDs.. Jocey is the best.. We were supposed to play Snow Badminton, but I got tired and lazy/cold after I walked to her house after a long bus ride.. I got to read a bit of her JTHM comic book, damn is that thing ever thick.Although for supper her dad got chinese food, which to which most people would say "w00t" or something to that effect, but it lacked one thing... a dish without meat ;_; Momo ate nothing ;_; Although we almost made cake.. maybe next weekend XD

On Sat I have a birthday party to go to so I'm not sure I'll make it to WAC, but we'll see.
Gah I wanna play TV bingo! It's so much fun!! gah.. always so busy on saturday tho.. *tear*

Moo moooooooo.. I don't know what to do about this person I like >_< Gar.. I know they like me too but I don't know how much, and a certain other person is standing in the way.. and that's all I'm gonna say.. yes, because it doesn't really involve anyone that reads this (Especially Steph, because, I don't care what anyone else says, or how much we have in common I do not like Iain, and really, it pisses me off when they say that shtuff, because I'm pretty sure they are doing it just to piss you off. How stupid is that?) Anyway, nobody really cares about my fucked up love life I'm sure, I just like to complain. Maybe I'll look back on this and be like.. "Ohhh yeah! Hey, I remember feeling that way.. damn.. was that ever stupid!" and have a good laugh.

Oh yeah! That reminds me!! My friend Tyler told me that he likes one of my other friends, Kyle, but not to tell anyone!! Well.. noone from my school reads this so.. TYLER LIKES KYLE!! TYLER LIKES KYLE!! TYLER LIKES KYLE!! TYLER LIKES KYLE!! TYLER LIKES KYLE!! TYLER LIKES KYLE!!

Ahh.. I just can't keep the secrets in!!! It prob'ly won't matter to much later, but.. ooooh, it feels good to spill the beans even though no one reading will care in the slightest.. XD

Remember a kiss is like kerosene..

Sun, 27 Feb 2005 20:28:55 GMT

UGH! WAC is a scary place without Dy ;_; It was a definate "sausage party" and for a long time there were only two girls (that's inculing me) That is until Steph and Iain came. Then there were.. uh.. three! OH YEAH! I CAN COUNT! w33t! Lol I hope I can get some more money to go to Green Day, maybe I'll see Steph there XD
But I feel really bad because some jackass was being mean to Steph and I just didn't know what to do. Loud stupid people scare me, I wish Dy had been there to say something funny or insulting to that guy.. maybe it would have relived some tension. Grr.. I'm pretty sure there are laws that prevent and procecute people who harm animals! If not.. I sure as hell will. Arg.. I hope she doesn't think it was me that said anything bad about her, she really seems like a nice person to me.. When she left the room the dumbass (who i don't know the name of, really.. and now I don't really want to) said that they should write a scedual of Steph's PMS days. OH that made me so mad! If WAC was some kind of workplace that could get fired for... uh.. sexual harassment or something. Although I don't really remember what I said, I'm pretty sure I yelled and Steph heard.. geh.. poor Steph... I hope she calls me, and isn't mad at me.. geh...

On a lighter note I think I made a new friend in Kathrine (sp? or is that even right? ugh stupid goldfish memory..) She's going to lend me manga and vice versa XD And I got free candy and strawberries so it wasn't a total loss.. meh.. Are they going to play Air again?!? No Air last time, no Air this time, wtf? Was it only two episodes?!? I really liked that one! Gao~! XP

Meh, me and Jocey's plans for roadtrip next month seem to be coming loose at the seams. My mom's car has now been in three, yes THREE! accidents just this week!!! OMGWTF?~?~!?!?! So.. angry... *implodes*

You know, having this blog thingie is actually kinda nice. I can complain about what ever I want yet, if people don't wanna know they can just stop reading, no skin of my back. I think I'll complain in here more often XP

WTF? Water is leaking from the ceiling..

And now for something completely different..

Fri, 25 Feb 2005 02:40:21 GMT

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Wow.. that actually makes me feel better...

Dear Diary, My teen angst bullshit has a body count.

Mon, 07 Feb 2005 19:27:01 GMT

WIGG-I-TY BOO! ANOTHER POST!!
Wow, am I ever lazy. I keep thinging of all these weird things that I should put in here but when it come to actually turning my computer on, I'm just like... meh. Right now I'm making pajama pants and being mad at Jared cuz he never phoned me yesterday, Gao! But the pajama pants have kick ass space ships on 'em so I'm all happy 'bout that. My cousin (who is helping me with all this) got this really hilarious fabric with Indiana Jones comic book panels on it. Her pajama pants are going to be awesome!
All last week I was sick as a dog because my mom had no money to pay for my fucking medication. Now I can't miss any more school or the teachers are gonna be pissed. Shit.. I really don't want to have to repeat grade 11 AGAIN! >_> Stupid.. stuff.. shit.. damn..
No school today though, thank god. I love random days off. I'm still in my pajamas XD So very lazy..
Tommorrow I get to develope my film in photos! Wee-hoo! We finally got to use real cameras, not those old fucking crappy 4x5 camera. Man, did those ever suck.
On a side note, I really like that Air anime.. If they continue to play it I will come to WAC every weekend for sure! lol Ranma just wasn't enough to drag me there, especially because now my mom doesn't have a car. Then again.. Grant is usually willing to give me a ride.. when I'm not late, which I usually am when I sleep in 'til 3pm o_O
I actually found out the daughter of my sister's boyfriend likes Invader Zim! Even though she's in Grade 3 I said "Lets hang out some time!" 'cause I'm a big nerd.

Dude, I was looking over my lil post here and I said "like" WAY to many times. Damn, what the hell! Gotta stop that.. so retarded... must.. fix..

I have thrown proper grammer out the window. It's time to make some new friends.

Tue, 04 Jan 2005 18:47:37 GMT

Man, having a dark line carved into your flesh isn't as pleasant as it sounds. At least I didn't cry or anything. It is finished, it's not some weird frowny face like some other guy got. I is not a wuss!! For future reference of any who want to get a tattoo, AVOID BONE! Hurts twice as much there. While we were there I was telling my sister about possible future peircings and she offered to pay for getting my lip peirced. Meh, I dunno.. I think I might rather the three eyebrow ones instead.
On another note, I am wearing glow-in-the-dark pajama bottoms!! w00t!! They are my cousin's but.. she made them too big, they fit me! Now I only have to bug her to make new ones so that I can have the too big ones..
Last night I played a fun new game my uncle got for Christmas, Ninja Burger. It is the hilarious. At first I lost all my honour and had to go back home to apoligize to my ancestors, but then the new ninja I got kicked ass. He was tall and skinny so if you got the lampshade his disguise was an atomatic success! Yeah, my mom won O_o

Wow, is this thing ever fucked up on my computer...

Mon, 03 Jan 2005 01:19:04 GMT

Geh, I have joined this to please some folks and their demanding-ness, though I don't know if I'll post that often. It's cold in my basement, but I'm extreamly bored and wish dearly that my friend will phone me back and ask me to do something. Meh.. Tomorrow I get my tattoo.. I hope it won't hurt to much. I didn't cry when I got my eyebrow peirced so I hope I won't cry when I get this done. A part of me really wants to get two more eyebrow peircings like Musica in Rave. It looks the awesome on him, but I dunno how good it would look on me.
I went downtown with the Jared but we didn't do much.. I was saddened by the lack of adventure that took place. Shmeh.. I wish I had some AOL CDs to have another ninja battle with but they were all out at the bank. Maybe I'll try Canadian Tire.. i think i saw some there.
My computer is being an ass and not playing my CD so I'm gonna stop now. it is the cold.